I love in Shrek when he compares himself to an onion and Donkey keeps trying to persuade him to use parfaits for his example. I actually like the use of both depending on the day. An onion has many layers that are somewhat similar. Just like as a person I’ve got my slight differences that people learn as they get to know me. Anyone who knows me well can tell you I’m quirky. However everyone has those days when they are down or feel saddened, mine are a bit different. This is where the parfait fits in. I’ve got an imbalance in my brain that causes me to need medication. If possible I don’t like to go without my medication however when things are tight I will spread out my medication. I’ve been known to go every other day plus the occasional times I forget to take my medication. It’s ok for a week anything longer and I am not me. I’m more like the parfait a crazy mixture of cake, ice cream, chocolate, nuts, hot fudge and lots of whip cream(or whatever type of toppings you like) but every bite is different. Sometimes you get more of one layer than another or none of another. For me that’s the combination of my anxieties and depression. Somedays I just don’t want to get out of bed but have the urge to do something and a slight fear that someone will be upset because dishes and laundry are piling up. I get forgetful, indecisive, and do semi odd things and most likely cannot focus on any of it. Somedays I pray and wonder why God just won’t take it away. Even to the point where I have questioned my own personal beliefs, if my faith is what I think it is. For someone who already thinks about almost every worse case scenario this is a hard one to move past. Emerging oneself in Gods word seeking an answer even though deep down I already know the answer. I Crossfit it gives me a place where I can put my nervous energy, my doubts in myself and reminds me I might cry during the misery that can be a wod but I still survived (especially after 16.5). I’ve had days recently where getting to the gym is harder than getting through the workout. Its hard to explain the change that takes place with medication. I can be extremely anxious or angry at someone and the medication kicks in and it’s almost like going from Hulk to Dr. Banner. This probably doesn’t make any sense, but I never think what I put down makes sense to anyone but myself.